Two possible paths forward: Hedonistic partying vs children

I realized something else about Ms. Slav: I'm tempted by her because I think that, together, we could do a lot to build up the non-monogamous community and tell a lot of people about non-monogamy; that sounds grandiose, but hear me out. Like I wrote in this other post, you have to be cool / have status first. IMO I have reasonable status and Ms. Slav combines being young and hot with unusual intelligence and a total love of non-monogamy, sex clubs, group sex, etc. So much so that I was a little bit confused when I first brought her into the scene... most chicks need a fair amount of coaxing, coaching, help, etc. Ms. Slav just ran straight in, blew right past me, and is deep in.

Already, some of the non-monogamous dating we've done has been unexpectedly intense. Ms. Slav is a true bisexual, it seems, and likes to dominate women... a very powerful combination, since most women are submissive and reactive, so, when two bisexual women get together, they often fizzle because neither one will start things up... chicks are used to guys leading. Many bi chicks like couple-to-couple dating because the guys will guide the chicks into the hookup, which the chicks can't manage on their own. One theme game guys learn is that a lot of chicks have trouble doing things without guidance/motivation/external stimuli... that may be why chicks do well in school and then don't make it to the very top of workplaces, since top jobs demand autonomy and internal motivation, not just "do task a, then task b."

Peter Thiel says that groups can get things done that individuals cannot. He is writing about companies, but that is true of other kinds of organizations, groups, and ideas too. We're experiencing a feminist hellscape because lots of small groups of feminists got together in the 60s and 70s to figure out how they can extract more value from men, and they largely succeeded (their narrative is somewhat different than the one I have just presented, although the results are the same). I think I can do something similar with Ms. Slav... because she is hot, smart, and uninhibited, we could do a LOT of community-building in a way that I have not seen in other chicks.

Most people are only interested in their immediate needs and surroundings. Most guys who start to read the pickup literature, never do anything with it... the ones who begin practicing, most don't write about it... the ones who write, most give up quickly... the ones who don't, most don't write books that might transcend their blogs... the number of guys who go beyond all that, is quite small. And usually they find themselves embedded in a group of some kind. One possible mistake I have made is not writing online sooner, although this might not have been a mistake, as I was focused on work and other matters and correctly anticipated that writing online could be a huge time sink with zero financial payoff. That anticipation has been totally correct. Importantly, though, Ms. Slav and I could built a large non-monogamy scene together, especially using couple-to-couple dating as an intake mode. Religious lunatics know that nothing beats person-to-person pitches... so do salesmen... real change happens one person at a time, ideally face-to-face (one weakness of guys writing on the Internet is that neither sees or knows each other... often one or both are full of s**t). I am tempted by doing that kind of messianic zeal with Ms. Slav, and I think she would go for it... she has the attributes for it, particularly if she's led properly. She's also young, though, and younger girls have weaker identities and are more prone to sudden shifts.

I'm tempted by her not just for the usual reasons (hot, lots of sex with other hot girls), but because she could be a powerful catalyst for showing other people the way. I have helped to host parties before... the two of us together could be a powerful locus for parties. I'm better organized than she is, not surprisingly, but she also LOVES non-monogamy like no other chick I've met, even Libido Girl. Or I should say, "Like no other hot chick I've met." There are some desperate fat chicks who are eager to flaunt their sex positivity. Most chicks will not make crude propositions and come-ons to me, at least before first sex... but low chicks, like 5s and below, sometimes will. It is their only potential source of value, so they use it. Not interesting to me, but enough guys must be willing to take the zero-effort lay for it to work. And fat chicks, older chicks, chicks who aren't very sexy... like attracts like, which I've been talking about too, so they typically can't host good parties. You have to have a core nucleus of sexy chicks and cool guys to make a party work. Take away the sexy chicks, and the whole thing falls apart.

One sexy chick who can attract and retain other sexy chicks, and you have a potential core/nucleus for a larger group. I have seen this thing sort of start before... but the chicks I've been with have never had the right combination of personality, IQ, and desire. The typical chick still fundamentally wants a firm, one-on-one relationship with a cool guy, while the other things are secondary to that primary relationship. Very few chicks think bigger than themselves and their immediate surroundings. That's true of some guys, too, but I'm not dating guys so I don't give a f**k about that in these circumstances.

So yeah. I think that's why I'm stuck on this point. I have a pretty clear question, or set of questions to answer... one way is to ease off the non-monogamy, group-sex thing, and work toward a kid. The other way is to join w/ Ms. Slav and go ALL. THE. WAY. To make the scene really happen. To leverage Feeld and other tools to meet a lot of people and to build a larger community.

If I had met Ms. Slav five years ago I think I would be doing this, or would have done this. Today, though, I feel my desire is not the same, and I am not as interested in building this kind of thing, compared to five years ago. I also recognize that my own desires seem to be shifting.

The trade-off is that doing this with Ms. Slav is not very compatible w/ having a kid. If you are going to comment and tell me how it is compatible w/ kids... please just stop, unless maybe you have had kids of your own... what people believe in theory is so far from what happens in practice, that I don't want to hear it. Sorry.

Practically every guy on the Internet has some chick who is "not like" the other chicks... Ms. Slav is really not like other chicks. She somewhat knows, I know it.