Found out the problem with Ms. Slav

I mentioned in my last update that Ms. Slav has been pulling away. We had a talk and an exchange of long emails and I found out the reason why: she feels hurt that I've slept with other girls, without her. I also told her I was thinking about seeing Peaches on my own. I literally forgot that I'd mentioned it to her, because she has been f**king so many people that me saying I might bang one in particular seemed beneath note. And now she is unhappy about that? Or that I didn't check in with her first about it?

If you've been following this saga, and you're like me, you'll have the same reaction: Hahahahahaha.

This is the same girl who's f**ked like ten or fifteen new people in the last several months. Or more? Who forgets the names of guys who've f**ked her? Who's gone to sex parties without "checking in" with me first? I think, anyway. Whose total freedom I haven't complained about?

Turns out we're all hypocrites, to an extent. You just have to dig deep enough. Ms. Slav likely feels greater jealousy than she let on. She seemed to want to live in a world of no rules or limits, but, like most people who think so, she actually doesn't. She wants no rules for herself, but some rules for others.

I'm glad I learned the greater part of her feelings while she wasn't there to see me laughing.

Like most hypocrites, Ms. Slav has a theory about why her behavior has been exemplary and mine hasn't been, and that theory involves her telling me things first, which she has re-cast as "checking in with me." Almost no one can reconcile primary relationships with totally unfettered, unchecked sexual freedom and license. Not even Ms. Slav.

None of this is to detract from Ms. Slav's virtues, which I have enumerated, and I don't want to devalue and dismiss her. But she is going to learn that you get what you give. She has been giving wanton, relentless, unchecked promiscuity... so she is getting it back in return.

She has also told me a long, probably true set of stories about guys "falling in love" with her, often without even banging her first. They give her shit. They behave in unattractive, weak ways. I haven't done anything like that. Maybe she is surprised that I'm not investing in her or converting deeply into her frame and world. I'm way too experienced to fall for that. She is not at all suitable for long-term investment. I didn't expect this level of wantonness. I've seen it in women, but it's pretty rare, because most women consciously or subconsciously want some male investment... which Ms. Slav will find very hard to get.

Maybe she will learn.

Maybe she won't.

The other thing I have to remember is that she's very young. She seems much older, so I forget her age, but when I was her age, I was probably even more blinkered than she is. And while there are aspects of what's really going on that I can tell her, there are other aspects I need to not say (about evolutionary biology, for example). We may stay in touch even after the sexual part of our relationship ends, or mostly ends, which I think will happen. I may even be the driving force to sever the sexual part. I may end up being more of a mentor-type person to her. Or nothing. I cannot say. I might be okay with dissolution, to be honest. She is too much for me. I don't think she would accept a more casual relationship, despite that being our trend line. Most chicks are reluctant to accept a step down in the relationship trajectory. In most ways, Ms. Slav is not like most chicks. She might be, however, in this way.